The element of surprise!!!

Today started out as a regular day not really worrying about much but me and my big mouth spoiled my main idea, a surprise for someone special. Tomorrow will make a year and four months with a friend, not just a friend but a wonderful boyfriend. Ill be honest time is flying... and I was planing something nice, cheap (lets be honest), and personal. So a picnic!! what better way to celebrate our relationship then to have a cooked meal, that I will do, and allow the whole world to pass us by! All I want to get out of tomorrow is a beautiful memory of us! But the element of surprise is gone.... :( With one question my "Problem solver" figured out what my main idea was and even though its not like its big but you know I still wanted it to be a surprise. So I really don't know how exactly how this will go but I am staying positive. My curiosity is more jumping for Friday, since he claims that will be when he surprises me... I don't know as long as its with him than  I am good ....
Well so far this work day has been a bust! I mean I work for this lady that has this PhD but really is as dumb as a cucumber!! I mean really, there are four students working the morning shit, 4!! and its completely unnecessary, since during the summer not many students come here!! We are probably the  only office in the entire school that has 2 days when we are open til 7pm!!! No one comes here, and I am the lucky one that has to sit my bum here to hear the howling wind, which is the AC. which by the way is on super high cause this school can NEVER get it right!!! I mean really there are some class rooms that have too much, and there are others that have windows with the sun beaming in and NO AC. Talk about being cooked. There is no room where it is just right. I am afraid not...nope so I wont miss this ice box. Or the Cucumber of the office.
I think in general no one really knows what will happen, however we plan and no matter what type of plan you get it always has its good, and bad surprise. So I cant wait to see how today pans out I just hope that the smile I came with, is still there by 7pm today.... (Doubt it though....Ill see)

The challenges and Issues of today...

In today's world it seems as though people are having a lot of problems coming to resolutions...Of course it seems as though some problems wont ever get solved. Immigration for instance is an issue that many feel passionate about... Many religious people in power for instance seem to be making their opinions known and befriending the president. This issue has made many choose sides as to whether to allow amnesty or not. Many feel that all Non-American's should go home. So really, really who would be left here??? Not only was this country founded by an immigrant, this country is made of combination's of ethnicity. So when political leaders claim that they are against making illegals legal well then why don't we search everyone's background and send everyone back to where they belong.... I mean lets be fair!!! All those who grandparents or parents are not from here send them right back to the "old country." Many people are faced with discrimination and its truly upsetting to see that in this day and age people still need to act violently against those that are innocent. Not everyone is good, true, but then again not everyone is bad... I hope that the issue of immigration does come at least to a democratic end. It may not come now, or tomorrow but when it does I hope at least there will be some order and understanding that follows....
Well besides politics, that even though I don't know that much because I really don't like to follow I have to say I am going on a whirl wind adventure. I am whirling around with the emotions of the heart and at times it feels like I am not breathing. Who ever knew that one could feel such love and compassion for another that was not family. I know I didn't I did understand how if you play with fire YOU WILL BE BURNED! That's clear. I understand that being with someone because you love is the only way to be in a relationship... but what if you love and know that its pointless??? Can there be such a thing?? Is knowing that what you have with another person "temporary" a justifiable reason to leave? But then again isn't every relationship that way? We all live, and die, no one is here forever, but who here is with someone who doesn't want something serious now, and if you are how do you deal with that? Let me know

The 4th of July

Today marks the Independence of this country... Its a proud day indeed, and for sure as I hear the fireworks go off, everyone is admiring the wonderful show, today I was given very sad news... In fact its something that is inevitable, and comes at any moment. A friend, a close friend has lost his younger brother...I am just finding out today, and even though the news is reaching my ears now, my heart is broken not just because this person lost someone dear but because he has gone through recently hard times. I haven't spoken to him in so long, and today I not only e-mailed, I called, left a voice mail, and have texted. Its 11:42pm and still no word. May be this guy chooses to not respond which is ok, I wouldn't want to force him to call especially about something so heart breaking as this.

What makes this 4th of July even worse is that someone under my house is feeling low as well. The cause "Puppy Love" oh yes, It may not be the end of the world but this person those tears and painful memories are what make and break her attitude and heart. I wish I could take the pain away from both, so that tonight they can both sleep in a deep and comforting slumber. Even though I may wish this for them, it cannot not be, through these hard heart felt challenges, and losses one must learn to move forward. I can only remember for the good book that "God doesn't give us challenges that we cannot overcome" and even though at that moment someone may feel like they are drowning, one is really never alone. Faith through these hard times is hard to hold on to, but if we don't now then how can we ever in the future...???

Food for thought.

Sleep well tonight, may tomorrow bring some good news to those who need it.