Today I was reminded why people, including myself, should never get too attached to the devices that they carry with them. My phone, the one thing that I carry always if not in my bag in my hand shut off on me, and refused to turn back on....I spent the better half of this morning going from one AT&T to another, just to be told that I have to spend twice as much to get either the same phone or better. I was upset, angry not just at the fact that I had to spend money to get a working phone, but that my information was lost...my dates, appointments, my PICTURES!!!! Now, after feeling mad, and just completely unsatisfied with the service I went to get my coffee, at least that was in my control, and I realized I was also feeling a sense of hopelessness. I began to think why, why was this feeling taking over me, could it be because I have to start from scratch, or may be because I payed money for a phone that I didn't want and can in no way help me stayed connected with the people that mattered the most.
As I sit and write this on the train ride home I just think of where I can keep my information. May be in an email account...noooooooo that can be hacked.....ohhhh may be in my lap top, noooooo cause that can also be stolen, or even breakdown. The solution Pen and Paper...it never fails, and can be kept in a place where no one will go and just take it. Now I have to work twice as hard to get back the dates, info and numbers back...because even though all my numbers should have been saved...they WEREN'T!!!! I lost even your number, yes...YOUR #!!!!
I think back to when I didn't have a phone for three months, 3 MONTHS!! During that time I never got this sense of hopelessness, or felt angry. I remember it being glorious, no one found me, I went anywhere and no one knew...I just did what I wanted and that was it. Looking back at today I think being disconnected from the Social Media Links that I could have just touch with a button before was upsetting....I think that was a big factor today. I just see that I have gotten so caught up with all the games, and social links that I didn't realize how often I look at these things.
To end this thought, writing about my feelings definitely makes me feel better but I know that later on this week I am going to have spend money in order to have a device to fulfill my needs. I just cant believe that I felt the way I felt, and that this happened. Consider this a lesson learned!
Monday, February 20, 2012
Sunday, February 5, 2012
It's not me, it's you...Or It's me, not you????
Riding the train into my City, I happen to look to my right and see a gentilmen reading the New York Times. What caught my eye in particular about the page was the bold title "It's Not me, its you" at first I thought I must have been reading it wrong. I take a few minutes while at work to look up the article and to my surprise I was reading the title correctly.
I took a few more minutes and as I am reading the article I find myself reading life experiences of psychologist who have "pulled away" or have had 'Mini Divorces" regarding friendship. I was shocked and amazed not just at the article and what was being discussed but more so the timing in my life and how this could affect me and my perception of the relationships I have in my life. As I finish reading I think to myself the 5 "W'S," who, what, where, when, and why.
The article focuses on individuals that have come to the realization that certain people in there social circle may not share the same value or goals. Breaking-Up turns out to be just as difficult because of the fear of hurting the other persons feelings. I have to say this feeling is something I worry about myself, I mean I never intend to hurt anyone, yet as life goes on and the curve balls start hitting drastic measures have to be taken.
To quote directly from this article " The first step before you end a friendship is to connsider, very carefully and seriously if you want to end a particular friendship or if you want it to wind down." I have to personally say that I would prefer a friendship to wind down. I never felt comfortable losing friends much less going through a "Break-Up."
For me this article touches my soul, makes me reflect on my life and the events that have recently happened to me. Makes me think, "Wait...I know that feeling, I know what these people are talking about," I appreciate the timing of this article. I appreciate how I am not the only that goes through moments where a tough conversation has to be done for the better of that persons future.
I took a few more minutes and as I am reading the article I find myself reading life experiences of psychologist who have "pulled away" or have had 'Mini Divorces" regarding friendship. I was shocked and amazed not just at the article and what was being discussed but more so the timing in my life and how this could affect me and my perception of the relationships I have in my life. As I finish reading I think to myself the 5 "W'S," who, what, where, when, and why.
The article focuses on individuals that have come to the realization that certain people in there social circle may not share the same value or goals. Breaking-Up turns out to be just as difficult because of the fear of hurting the other persons feelings. I have to say this feeling is something I worry about myself, I mean I never intend to hurt anyone, yet as life goes on and the curve balls start hitting drastic measures have to be taken.
To quote directly from this article " The first step before you end a friendship is to connsider, very carefully and seriously if you want to end a particular friendship or if you want it to wind down." I have to personally say that I would prefer a friendship to wind down. I never felt comfortable losing friends much less going through a "Break-Up."
For me this article touches my soul, makes me reflect on my life and the events that have recently happened to me. Makes me think, "Wait...I know that feeling, I know what these people are talking about," I appreciate the timing of this article. I appreciate how I am not the only that goes through moments where a tough conversation has to be done for the better of that persons future.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)