Its a rainy day in Manhattan

Well I have to say that this morning was a horrible start. I woke up around the hour of 2:30am and I couldn't go back to sleep. I tried every possible position, and tired to think of "Sleepy thoughts" but nothing. All I did was watch how time was going by and I was in and out of consciousness.
This week has been a scary one, all the problems that I wouldn't think about came out, and I am not even talking about problems of mine...I am talking about family problems....
Every day its been one problem after another. It surprises me how much can happen in a few days. No matter what though it has been a great joy to finally be in the city. I really enjoy the ride, and the view of coming into the city. Even on a cloudy day as this I still see the bright lights and can sense the excitement in the air.
The day is moving so quickly I just cant wait to see what happens next...hopefully something good.

What a Glorious Day!!!

Today started like any other...Not wanting to get up. I was in bed thinking how being caught in the rain after an event that I went to was fun last night. I woke up and the first thing I hear is my dog crying to go out. I take him out jump back into bed, and realize I have to start the day, I cant be only here when there is so much outside.
I am currently at work, I do feel like something big is gonna happen today, I really do! Don't ask me why, or how I got this feeling the important thing is that I got it, and I feel great!
I have been thinking a lot about my life and how I have to make things happen now, I mean I cant sit on my bum and wait for it...I think I may have already said that in another post, but besides that I am hoping that some people that I know may help me out with employment. Not that I am not doing my end, but you all know its about WHO you know not what you know.
I hope that all that read this have a fantastic day, may you all get surprises that take your breath away...in a good way! :)

Ciao

What a feeling...

I have to say that this is certainly a new experience for me. I haven't been single in a very, very, very long time. In a way I kinda feel like I don't even need a cell phone. More or less I haven't even really used it.  I have definitely been using the city as my escape from my reality of just sitting at home, or cooking at home. Trying to keep busy is also very exhausting. I have become the cab driver in my house, driving mom back and to work, my brothers and sister to where ever they need to be. I don't mind it some times, yet a part of me wishes I could say that I am sorry I have a date waiting and we are gonna have a great night. More or less encompassing dinner a movie, may be even a little dancing. I am feeling a whole lot better, I do feel happy,  not ecstatically happy but happy One of my friends is going through a hard time cause her man just left her. I went through the same feelings about three weeks ago. I know its hard, and painful but she is strong and can get through it.
Its never easy going through a break up, especially finding out that all that time, and effort was for nothing. The clincher of that break up was that she did find out that she was being used. Used to get ahead in school. I don't want to say much about it but I really, really want to kick this man's face in. I don't understand how someone can do this...Is it that funny, or fun??? Some one please explain it to me cause I don't get it. I want to get her and help her through this trauma because that's what it is. Unfortunately its better to have a moment of peace to gather one's self and try and find their own way out. I mean Ill keep checking on her, and calling to see how she is...But this is a hell that a woman must get herself out of on her own. what do you think???
On other things besides love... I have recently been unemployed for about a week.. I know I know your all wondering where have I applied? Whats my next step well really, really I am not even sure. what I am sure is that I am not gonna wait here for a job to fall into my lap I am on the move making calls and I am fortunate enough to have people around  me who care enough to ask, and give suggestions. not all the suggestions are helpful but I appreciate them anyway.
What I am thankful for is that on Saturday I have a job. Its not a lot, really, its barley what I need but it helps. Its something to keep change in my pocket, as I go looking for the right place to stay.  Life in New York is NOT easy but I enjoy the challenge of trying to make it, cause there's the saying "If you can make it here then you can male It anywhere!"

Well that's all for now I hope to write soon!!! Ill keep you all posted

Ciao

Having a much better attitude

Its Monday night and I must say today I have woken up with a better attitude then usual. For those that may not have read my other blogs, I have recently become single. This is a whole new thing for me. I haven't been really single in a long time. Even so today I felt more positive about the whole situation then ever before, it feels like freedom. Just in a different way. I guess what I am trying to say is that I don't need to talk to anyone, tell anyone where I am, or even really look at my phone. Which brings the other dilemma of really not using it as much. I have actually thought of changing it, I never needed a complicated phone but due the easier keypads and such I got a current model of a phone. Well Ill keep you posted about the phone. I wish I could say that I am over him, but as many as you wiser people know that's not the case. My heart calls for him, yearning his affection but it is just a one way street. From what I gathered from out latest conversation, cause yes we have spoken after the break up...he does miss "us." That leaves my mind at many questions...why the break up? Why fight to stay apart when coming together is easier? Why cant we be happy?? and the list goes on and on. Many of the people who have "comforted" me have advised me that its fate telling me their is someone better. Or that due to his lack of experience he has made a big mistake and he wont know it until it is to late. Hearing my own thoughts I come to see that of course they are right, their are more fish in the sea, that fate may have some other fabulous gentleman waiting for me, I know that patience is a virtue. I just hope that things progress in a flash because I am not the most patient woman. I am taking this week to do me..Do what I feel is right for me, Ill fill you guys in later one...I hope all of you are having a better week see ya soon Night :)