I have to say that this is certainly a new experience for me. I haven't been single in a very, very, very long time. In a way I kinda feel like I don't even need a cell phone. More or less I haven't even really used it. I have definitely been using the city as my escape from my reality of just sitting at home, or cooking at home. Trying to keep busy is also very exhausting. I have become the cab driver in my house, driving mom back and to work, my brothers and sister to where ever they need to be. I don't mind it some times, yet a part of me wishes I could say that I am sorry I have a date waiting and we are gonna have a great night. More or less encompassing dinner a movie, may be even a little dancing. I am feeling a whole lot better, I do feel happy, not ecstatically happy but happy One of my friends is going through a hard time cause her man just left her. I went through the same feelings about three weeks ago. I know its hard, and painful but she is strong and can get through it.
Its never easy going through a break up, especially finding out that all that time, and effort was for nothing. The clincher of that break up was that she did find out that she was being used. Used to get ahead in school. I don't want to say much about it but I really, really want to kick this man's face in. I don't understand how someone can do this...Is it that funny, or fun??? Some one please explain it to me cause I don't get it. I want to get her and help her through this trauma because that's what it is. Unfortunately its better to have a moment of peace to gather one's self and try and find their own way out. I mean Ill keep checking on her, and calling to see how she is...But this is a hell that a woman must get herself out of on her own. what do you think???
On other things besides love... I have recently been unemployed for about a week.. I know I know your all wondering where have I applied? Whats my next step well really, really I am not even sure. what I am sure is that I am not gonna wait here for a job to fall into my lap I am on the move making calls and I am fortunate enough to have people around me who care enough to ask, and give suggestions. not all the suggestions are helpful but I appreciate them anyway.
What I am thankful for is that on Saturday I have a job. Its not a lot, really, its barley what I need but it helps. Its something to keep change in my pocket, as I go looking for the right place to stay. Life in New York is NOT easy but I enjoy the challenge of trying to make it, cause there's the saying "If you can make it here then you can male It anywhere!"
Well that's all for now I hope to write soon!!! Ill keep you all posted
Ciao
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