I have to say yesterday I was very excited and nervous. I went to work with great optimism to fix a little problem I had with my boyfriend, and well enjoy work as much as possible. Ill tell you, I was way off...Work was too cold, and to much. I got really anxious and I got really upset. All those students who need to change courses, and need this, or that...I just didn't know what to do. I just decided to keep my mouth shut. After 5pm I was more or less excited to see my boyfriend. I was frustrated with him for 7 days, he was not her to fight with me or make me feel better but when he was here well...I didn't want to see him. When yesterday came I had no idea what he was planning to do. It turns out that he came to see me to finish it. He broke up with me. After a summer of love, adventure, and just coming together...its over.
I don't know what to think, or what do to...How do I feel about this whole thing??? I am confused, I feel as though someone left a hole in my heart and it cant be filled. I want this pain to go away, I want to feel whole, complete again...Why do I miss him? Why do I want to hold him, kiss him...WHY!!!! I just want this feeling to go away...
If for some reason you get to this... I miss you, and I love you. I never wanted you to do it. I never thought that another fight may lead to this. If I could see you and hold you again I would hold you and never let you go....
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